GROWTH: THIS IS FUN

I’ve committed to become who I am. Who I was before I settled into the lies of my pain. Searching my heart to gain understanding. Digging to discover the truth of myself. “Is this faith? Or fear?” 

I set boundaries around my heart to protect the growth. These guardrails keep me safe. In this haven I become self-enlightened. 

Growth grows. Eventually pressing on the boundaries of my understanding.  

The New is here. Exposing the tenderness in the unhealed. 

I resist. “Any threat to my solace is the enemy.” Even if this enemy is within. 

But, this threat reveals the Truth. “How can I choose the lesser way with greater staring me in the eye?” 

I can’t. Settling opposes the core of my being. But, there is safety in this settlement.

I stretch over the fence to reach for the new from inside my understanding. It is always a faith’s distance too far. 

The New affirms, “Well done. Who you will be lives in who you are. More awaits.”

Growth encourages, “One step. You are who you need to be. It’s time.”

Understanding protects, “It’s safe here. There’s nothing for you out there. It’s never time to be hurt.” 

“The pain of staying the same or the pain of change? Who I’ve been or who I’m becoming? What I know or what I will discover?” Only one option. Yes. To the latter. 

I am inspired, “Let’s go! I didn’t lose. I made the winning move!” 

I am afraid, “Where am I headed? What if I am wrong? How will this end?” 

One thing I know, to embrace growth I must relinquish understanding.  

This is challenging. But, This Is Fun.

By Christian John Bradley